The Trapeze Swinger

I'm 20 and I live in Singapore. I've got a soft spot for Indonesia cause there's where my grandparents live and I visit from time to time.

This is a quick sum up of my year so far:

I came out earlier this year, and to my family sometime in July. I didn't go very well, probably because I thought it would. I don't think I was naive before, but I assumed that times are different now and that people are less... stupid? Evidently, we're not there yet.

We took in a 3-month-old pup: Bagel the beagle. His hobbies include chewing furniture, humping on towels, and headbutting into my crotch.

I found out that cats are banned in public flats and that my cat of 7 years, my own love, in is danger of being "impounded" to the SPCA if my house gets spot checked. I've decided that if a man comes in here and tries to take her away I'll break him apart and go to jail.

Turning 20 this October forced me to reassess my life. I've been wasting so much time on things that I never even truly cared about. I've been pretending - for whatever the reason I was caught up in - and now I feel derailed. But also filled with a renewed determination to be a better person, to dare to care, and to dare to speak up. I hope this feeling lasts.

November's coming to an end.. Might be the worst month of the year so far (one more to go). It started off amazingly with the Amanda Palmer show though. And then life. There were several occasions where I came close to having a breakdown - a scary thought for anyone with a history of depression. Dire, dire days they've been (for people around me too)! But UNIFEM just accepted my application yesterday. So one good thing there. And hopefully if i try hard enough, the rest will work out too.

My last.fm. My email. :)

realrealsoft:

mills:

This is the best way I was ever given a phone number. It will soon enough be a year since we decoded and untangled this, you. It has been fun, hasn’t it?
There is a fraught relationship between the people one cares for and how one writes, and between subjects and muses. At times, you may recognize that someone is overwhelmingly important to you if you cannot write well about them, only to them. On the other hand, this may merely reflect one’s creative limitations: one cannot gain literary ascendency over everything.
But one shouldn’t want to: better to have such friends than to be able to write about them. Life over art, one might say.


This is very hot.

realrealsoft:

mills:

This is the best way I was ever given a phone number. It will soon enough be a year since we decoded and untangled this, you. It has been fun, hasn’t it?

There is a fraught relationship between the people one cares for and how one writes, and between subjects and muses. At times, you may recognize that someone is overwhelmingly important to you if you cannot write well about them, only to them. On the other hand, this may merely reflect one’s creative limitations: one cannot gain literary ascendency over everything.

But one shouldn’t want to: better to have such friends than to be able to write about them. Life over art, one might say.

This is very hot.

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    realrealsoft:mills: This is the best way I was ever given a phone number. It will soon enough be a year since we decoded...
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    realrealsoft:mills:
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    Math is, indeed, hot. I get weak in the knees for cute guys who can do math.
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    This is very hot.
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    God, math is fucking hot. No, i’m not being sarcastic either. I used to live for Calculus.
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    great idea (even...it is 6th grade math).
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    most romantic thing i’ve seen in...long while. mills:
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